Company Matters...

Sometimes we go through stuff.... we feel a mix of anxiety, hopelessness, grief... tending towards negativity... So many feelings but the only solution is "patience" for the moment to pass.. this is a situation when your heart just doesn't listen to your mind... there is a logic in your head but the heart wants what the heart wants... there is no one who can absolutely convince you... everything feels so aloof even when surrounded by people - family n friends..

There are so many experiences and so many tough times which we may have surpassed... yet this seems new again... a few experiences are to be confronted to understand the commotion.. there is a route cause for this and your behavior is just the end result driven by a few deep thoughts.. you may perhaps excel at being an eccedentesiast... but that, however, doesn't unravel the pandemonium within you... and there is, unfortunately, noway to express it.. 

I haven't come across someone who can claim to be "perfect".. Everyone goes through tough times.. some might overcome easily and some may not... Some know how to deal with uncertainty perfectly and other struggle to deal with it.. eventually you have to learn to live after all.. else there is nothing left to live..

I have lived alone sufficiently to understand what loneliness is and how to convert being alone to an exciting expedition.. but truly these are just temporary.. what someone really needs is a company.. and a company to entirely accept who you are.. you are free and you can utterly be open knowing that there is no fear of judgement.. where you can cry like a baby and laugh like a madman.. you will still be loved.. you can be unreasonable, unfair and demanding... and still you know that you will be loved back unconditionally.. The crazy moment passes and eventually you will be sane enough to realise that things will be fine.. 

There are times when circumstances make you go far from this "company"... and there are times when you realise you are no longer in that "company" even with a companion.. both the situations lead to a chaotic life... keeping yourself busy and compromising for society are short-living.. retrospectively introspect to alleviate or rather eradicate the issues... find that company which you deserve to be with and encounter that true love to resolve the purpose of this life.. 

Finally a few amazing lines on companionship....

Those who have never known the deep intimacy and the intense companionship of happy mutual love have missed the best thing that life has to give....

You could hold me and I could hold you. And it would be so peaceful. Completely peaceful. Like the feeling of sleep, but awake in it together...